Its no secret..
Yup.. its no secret that I'm freaking bad tempered!
Nope.. nothing happened for me to openly say this, I just wanted something to go with the title of the entry... I'm lousy with titles.
Have you ever had this feeling that you know something should be done... or something that is happeing in front of your very eyes is wrong, but you just cannot gather the strength to fix things up?
I woke up this morning to a series of things gone wrong, and its a wonder how the email has helped in transfering these news in speed and bulk... nabei.
*footnote: The term "Nabei" in my blog has been liberated from its vulgar cell, its now
In My Blog a decent exclamation of dismay. *
Well.. things sorted itself for awhile and I'm not facing anything close to a death sentence.
I've realised how I'm gettting lousier in talking to people, make small conversation.
Suddenly, I seem to be able to make nonsensical noise come out of my mouth, and frankly seeing the person's bewildered expression doesn't help at all...
I need to get back myself.. what happen to the old me? It's not there anymore!!!
Sigh... The big day is coming and frankly I'm all stressed up to what I should do...
Nabei...
Oh... Her mum invited me for dinner this Sun....
WHAT DO I DO!!!!!!
WHAT DO I SAY????
DO I TIE A TIE???
DO I BUY PRESENTS???
WHAT IF I MAKE LAME COMMENTS???
WHAT IF I'M.... BORING???
I think I have a super power....
I make people bored.
Nabei....
Shake Shake Shake
No I'm not done with my project.. and yes I'm bored.
Hanging round
MacDonald in
Sengkang waiting for her to finish with
tuition. Projects and test are taking up loads of our time and I figured every minute that can be squeezed out to see her is worth the trouble....
The last time these little actions counts to me.. I ended up getting ditch. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I'm spared from it this time.
Sitting across the basin and being bored, allowed me to properly
analyse the fact that everybody are dirty little monsters!!Ask yourself... after you wash your hand in the basin, where do you dry off your hand? I got multi variations man! Legs of pants.... Under armpit... Buttocks of pants... and those that are less trusting on the cleanliness of their clothes uses the shake shake shake method..Nabei... kanna us la....
Update.. I'm back..
I'm back.
Cause
2 alot of people are telling me my writing
needs practice is interesting.
However as RMIT is very
Bo liao concern with my future, they have given me loads of project to make me even more
blur clear with my modules.
So I have to give a quick run through in point form (something I've learn that is useful when doing assignments, it cuts down your word count by loads!) of what's going on in my life.
1) Dyed hair to brown
2) No longer rich and living luxuriously
3) Working with Combat Skirmish ( I will earn commision if you all go through me to book sessions.)
4) I got girlfriend (She's Serene) (I love her) (Her temper worst than me) (She is wearin blue braces)
Ok... I'll update more after submission of projects this week.
I still dream of green.
There isn't a single moment where I will not catch myself thinking of the times in Green.
There's been reports on papers from over protective parents, guys that are too pussy to hold a rifle or even past "Greens" that are still scornful over their wrongly commisioned officers, saying how unrealistic the army is... how fucked up it is to be in there.. or even how "tough" it is for newly enlisted civilians.
The fact is how could they comment on it, when they have never served as an combatant?
Nor served with people that actually gave shit about the person standing next to them?
I have served with the greatest band of leopards.
I would have gladly laid my life for any one of them, likewise they would, for me.
Frankly, I have not met a single person that would do the same since I've left the service.
Sometimes I ask myself why is that.
If the service is as fucked up as people claims, shouldn't I be able to meet better people out here?
If I die.
I want to die for a cause.
I do not want to die out of illness.
I do not want to die out of an accident.
I want to have the option to choose to die for a cause.
I want to die for a true commarade.
That bad?
I know its probably something negative if I don't blog as often...
But to the extent of being labeled "bad id" by my own tag board??
Look at the right side of my blog, where the tag board used to be.
I have no idea what happened, probably my tag board felt untagged and it fled... but leaving a
message like.... " bad id"
W.T.F!!!
Since when did I start stepping on you?
ANYWAY.... I sent a form for cell group through newcreations website, so some cell group leader around my area is probably going to call me soon.
I want to go for cell group. I still feel so.... lost in my relationship with Him and I want to change it. Well, I've wanted to change it for awhile, but this is probably the first time I stood up to do something.
This whole holiday thing is pretty good for me. I slacked. I slept. I slopped. I stink.
Yup. Pretty much covered all the S's that could be done.
Oh.. This came into my head pretty randomly..
I have this friend, well... we hardly talk face to face, but we are pretty chummy online.
Now... she has this self-proclaimed obsession with people with wrong grammer.
So... I don't know why, but whenever I make a post and I ponder about a spelling or grammer. I would see her face all scrunched up like she bit into a garlic or something...
Yeah.. I have an implanted Larlin-tionary in my head.
Im alive
Its been awhile since I last blog...
Half a year?
Seriously, I got sick of blogging. Guess the frequent change in mood is effecting my feelings...
So if I really do blog bout what I think... I guess I would have to edit a post at least 10 times?
Thus, instead I decided to NOT blog. :)
The reason why I am blogging tonight is because I'm stuck in a stage of my game and I have nothing better to do now. So Im here... letting anyone who actually still comes here know that Im alive.
Hmmm... well just a shout out that I pretty hate my life now....
Yesh I know, as compared to some unfortunate kid in africa, Im suppose to have a ball of a time now...
But... I really hate it.
So there...
Hmm...
I got a good news in my life though....
Well... I know Jesus loves me.... thats pretty much the only good thing that is happening in my life now.... Though Im still confuse about my temper though...
Hmmm.... Sermon from Pastor today hit dead spot.
"If anyone smites you on your right cheek, turn the other cheek."
- Do not let the person's action dictate yours.
Things to do on V-day
As compare to couples having to figure where to go to blend into the crowd of Valentines worshippers...
I am free from that kinda worries!
I think I shall have a good time eating Nachos at the cinemas!
....... one downside.
Nobody is single enough to company me.
I can imagine the face of the cashier when I ask for a single ticket.....
Back to the drawing board.
Labels: what the hell is this?
Happy V-day everyone.
I cannot understand how things can turn out the way it is seriously.
Nowadays going to school is turning to be a drag.
Sure there are still fun in it... just that little bit. In comparison to the last sem... so big difference!
Arghh... I guess this sem is really gonna be a studying sem har. With lesser frens, ODAC on LULL and 2Js overseas till oct.
I forsee lotsa reaching home early. Mum is gonna be damn happy.
I miss being back in green. Oh.. I got my letter for my incamp. Damn happy la... finally something familiar... 731 with the boys.
I miss being there..
I miss being with the people who truely value friendship/brotherhood. People who stick around with you when the going gets tough and actually knows that being there is all that counts.
Its really so darn hard to find nowadays...True friends.
I think I've said this last year... but... I'm going to say it again. I hate Valentine's day. Screw this motherfucker Valentine. Na bei chao ji bai. Yes I wrote vulgarity.
It wasn't so bad in camp you know.... You have 100 over cadets feeling miserable with you over Valentines day. It doesn make it better seeing their dejected face.
Sorry, I'm feeling damn Na bei chao ji bai now.
Tried to sleep.. then all the unhappy things came into my mind... Nothing big actually, just that it seems things are in the wrong place.
Or... I'm just irritated it is not in better place.
I miss being good in what I do.
I miss being respected for what I can do and achieved.
I miss lotsa things that were going well in the past and not now.
I miss sleeping at command.
Fuck... I'm doing the I miss thing again....
